New Year, Same Problems

Well, happy 2012, nonexistent readers!

I had a wonderful Christmas! I spent it with my loving family and was able to get together with my closest group of friends a few days later... and ate lots of delicious food on both occasions. :) I hope anyone who stumbles across this had an excellent holiday and enjoyed their New Year's festivities!

While it's a brand new year and it's been months since my last post, not a lot has changed. At least not in my personal life. I'm still just as career-confused as ever. I am not only considering changing my major (again), but also changing schools.

My newest possible major/career is diagnostic medical sonography... a fancy way of saying that I'm considering studying to become an ultrasound technician. This isn't as completely out of the blue as it may seem. All through junior high and high school, my best friend encouraged me to look into becoming an ultrasound tech or something similar, assuring me the job would cater to several of my talents and interests. While I didn't take her too seriously at the time, I realized a few months ago that she's right. However, I'm still not totally convinced that it's what I want to do, so here I am again... on the fence between sticking with my current major, or changing to something completely new and different. Except this time, the decision is a little more loaded. If I make the switch to sonography, I would have to transfer to a different school. This school does not provide on-campus housing for its students, but a housing opportunity presented itself in the form of living in a townhouse with one of my best friends. Yes, initially, it sounds pretty great... but there are several additional factors: Number 1 is MONEY. Not only is the rent an obvious expense, but I would also need to purchase a car, furnish the house, pay for food and other miscellaneous home supplies, and everything else that comes with living on your own. And in order to do that (Here comes Factor Number 2), I would need to secure myself a job in the area.

I know I'm not confident about my current major and I'm not completely happy with my current college, but I'm not exactly 100% about being an ultrasound technician either. I'm at as much of a loss as I was last year and it sucks. Like, really, really sucks. It makes me feel as though I haven't made any progress; I'm stuck in the same rut I've been flailing around in for the past several years

Everyone will tell you, "Follow your heart!" or "Pursue your passion!" but I don't know what my passions and talents are. There are several things that I enjoy doing, but nothing stands out as being something that I want to do as a job for the rest of my life. There's nothing that stands out as being my true passion. So until I figure it out or simply step out on a limb... I'm kind of stuck.

Basically, growing up is hard. And life sometimes sucks.

So... yep, that's where I'm at. Yay, right?