Growing up...

I finished my sophomore year of college ready to transfer to a new school with a new major, preparing to move out of my parents' house and live on my own (with a roommate). It all seemed kind of distant in the future, and all of a sudden, my roommate is moving into our house and we're transporting furniture and I'm applying for jobs in the new area and... AH! I don't feel old enough to be making such adult-like changes. It's a strange feeling.

What makes that strange feeling intensified is that I'm moving back into the area where I went to high school. It's cool because I'm more familiar with that town and everything, but it's kind of strange to be seeing my old classmates and other familiar faces at the gas station and the grocery store after not experiencing that for a few years. I haven't decided if it's an occurrence that I like or not yet.

All of these changes are super exciting, but also nerve wracking. If I'm being honest with myself, I'm not 100% sure I'll be able to afford living on my own. Paying bills and rent, affording groceries and household necessities, anticipating my first legitimate job, searching for a car.... I'm a little scared. Excited and scared. I'm a person with inconsistent opinions regarding change, and this much change, especially all at once, is a bit of a challenge to handle. I think the process has already earned me a few gray hairs, and I'm only in the beginning stages of everything! All I can do is hope and pray that everything will work out and that I made decisions that will be positive in my life. Time will tell, but I'm feeling (more or less) good about this. *Crosses fingers.*